my anxiety are coming back again! i dont want it to come back ! Its eating up every part of me again with loneliness and sadness. I cannot think straight anymore , I cant trust anyone anymore! :(

I'm really tired . I'm really tired of trying to be nice to people . It's not worth it . It's not worth it at all. They don't see what I do for them . I'm just always ignore by people and trying to get their attention is worning me out . I hate being lonely I hate being ignored I hate being by myself . Why can't I have a friend or boyfriend that I can rely on . I'm not happy with him now . Everytime he look unhappy but he won't tell me what's wrong . What did Ido wrong . :(